I look backwards into my mind's eye
to see what lay in the stillness there.
I see:
butterfly dragons with
hand painted wings,
flecked white and blue,
dusted with green.
I look further still into blindness.
Then, I see something, a nightmare.
I see:
rain falling red on snowbanks
white no more.
Sun rising backwards,
games playing, no scores.
I hurry on, deeper past the cobwebs,
only to find new playthings.
I see:
dolls in black satin
a ball with jacks.
A deathly white spider
waiting to attack.
I'm frightened, I want to stop.
But the need to see the ending pushes me on.
I see:
a man dressed in grey,
searching for my life.
He almost suceeds,
but is stopped with a knife.
I scream inside my head, my eyes breaking,
sending fragments of jade through the shadows.
I see:
merry-go-round ponies,
screaming in agony, dying.
I go to help
but I am too late.
I finish, the collaspe in weariness from my journey.
But, was it real, or was it...
Now I know:
the mind is a wild thing,
not tamed, only seasoned.
Without warning,
it will turn on you for no good reason.